Reason for Working Out

When I first started working out, my entire drive was for fertility.  That was THE reason I started and why I kept going.  I have worked so hard and come so far, physically and mentally.  Honestly, it's the mental part that is the biggest struggle.  I've been having a rough week this week during my workouts.  Bawling at the end of them and sometimes through them.  But I keep on going.  They just keep getting harder and harder.  That's a good thing though because that means I'm getting stronger. 

 

But after doing some thinking last night and the better part of the morning, I have come to discover that I don't just work out for the fertility stuff anymore.  It's a big motivator no doubt, but I work out because I want and need to have a good life, whether or not I get to have children.  I want to be able to be out enjoying my life everyday.  And that is hindered by poor health.  I had let myself go for a variety of reasons (or excuses, rather.)  But now that I am slowly coming up on the other side of that, I don't ever want to get back to where I was.  I'm struggling mentally with the infertility right now, but at least I can rest assured that I am being pro-active about it and not just whining!  That in itself, makes me feel a million times better.

 

I know it probably seems like I might be a tad obsessed, and that's part of the reason I'm putting this on here rather than Facebook, but the fact that I can control my fitness and health is comforting when I have absolutely no control over my reproductive organs.  So I can hold on to that for now.

I'm ending this post with some pics I took this morning after I woke up and, after glancing in the mirror, really felt like I'm starting to love my body again.  I've been working soooooo hard and felt I have earned the right to be proud of the progress.  

This one is me trying on the bridesmaid dress I wore to my brothers wedding 2 years ago!!!!!