Sunday, April 7, 2013

Hoping with all I have...

Today was IUI #3.  While I'm extremely thankful for having made it this far again (and I really really am, !!!!), the excitement is winding down on the IUI's and it kind of saddens me.  I keep trying to be as excited as I was for the first one, but it's just not there.  It has become just another routine thing in this process.

I AM, however, still hopeful!  It's awesome to know that there is actually a chance that I will get pregnant.  Even that we are fighting some serious odds, there is still a chance, and that's all I can really ask for.  I'm hoping so very hard that this works.

If it doesn't work, it will be probably the worst timing ever to find out...because my sister-in-law is 2 weeks away from her due date.  Thinking about that makes my heart sink, which in turn, makes me feel like a horrible person.  I know I will love my niece or nephew when he/she is born, but I'm having a hard time trying to find any sort of enthusiasm for sister-in-laws pregnancy.

Anyway, I don't mean to sound like a giant bummer.  I really am thankful that I have made it to IUI #3.  And I hope with my entire being that this time works!!!!!!

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