It's about time to call and see what the plan is. I have 1 week left of BCP left of this packet. My IF specialist might not have had time to look things over yet since she's probably been on holiday break. But I will call anyway. Hopefully, I can start a cycle. But we'll see what she has to say about the hubby's stuff.
I feel pretty emotionally recuperated from the last few go-rounds to get the ball rolling again. I'm still struggling with making future plans, though. And every time I see a mother have a little moment, no matter how small it is, with her kid, my heart sinks a little bit and I almost have to look away. But, I suck it up because I can't live my life in a cave and I figure, eventually, it will get easier. I love all my mom friends dearly and I can't just shut them out because it's sometimes hard to see all the stuff that I want sooo badly in my life. Honestly, it's probably good for me because it reinforces just how badly I want a family.
Christmas was pretty rough at times. I tried not to cause a scene or make it about me, though. When I felt the tears coming, I just went into the bathroom to regain my composure. My brother noticed, though, and made sure I was ok.
I'm hoping I can do another cycle after this week. I feel like I've had enough breaks since starting all this shit 6 years ago. Now that my ovaries have potential, I don't want to break for long. I know it's good for me, but I just feel like I've been in my waiting time. It's time for action!!!
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I hope she gives you the go ahead. I meant to comment on your hubbies issue weeks ago. I have several friends who had that issue, did surgery to repair and had completely normal sperm counts after! Just a thought... Not sure you need to go there yet or what research you had done on it.
Always thinking of you!!!!!!!!
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